Sometimes I feel very discouraged because our dreams of having a family homestead seem too far beyond our reach. We have a lot of debt--and little savings--and it's difficult to reverse that trend with a growing family and erratic income. We are trying our best--but (and I'm sure most people can relate to this) it seems that as soon as we can save up something, a new expense confronts us. Such as now--with four children we really need a van. Our 1997 Intrepid is getting really cramped!
But although there are days when I feel that we will never save up anything, never get where we want to be, I always feel thankful for all the blessings we do have. Living here, in this small city house, might not be our ideal, but it's still a great place in many ways, and I try to remember that.
For instance, today it's raining cats and dogs, and I have nowhere to go. I feel thankful that I can stay in the house all day. If we had a homestead, there would be chores to do and I wouldn't be able to keep myself dry. Just a little thing, but still.
I'm also grateful for the conveniences that are all so close to us here. We have everything we could ever need within walking distance of our home: doctors, dentists, a library, restaurants, a produce market, a grocery store, an office supply store, a thrift store. Right across the street from us is a Walmart and a Home Depot. Although I'd prefer to see a grove of whispering birches from my bedroom window over the glaring orange sign of Home Depot, it has been very convenient for us to have all this shopping so close by, and has saved a lot of gas over the years I'm sure.
Living here, our family is close by. It's also a plus for us that the kids can easily find other children to play with when they go outside. And one block away is a large park with a big play structure.
Our house itself is comfortable. It has a garage, which has been wonderful for Chris to use as a workshop, a main floor utility room which is nice and bright for doing laundry and sewing, and a tiny back yard where the boys love to play in the sandbox Chris made them--a sandbox which he recently doubled in size. I also love our big master bedroom, and the big diningroom separate from the kitchen which provides a nice place to do our homeschool lessons.
I think it's important for us to count our blessings wherever we are, and enjoy our lives right now. We spend a lot of time dreaming about the country property we'd like in the future, about the gardens, and fruit trees, and all that; but right now we are here, and that's not all bad.